Composure in Motion: Choosing Calm Over Chaos
For years, I mistook passion for purpose and reaction for leadership. I wanted fairness so deeply that I fought every battle head-on, not realizing my triggers were leading me. It took years, and stillness, to understand that calm isn’t weakness; it’s wisdom. True composure is learning to pause, breathe, and lead from peace instead of pain. When you stop reacting, silence becomes your strength.
Words shape wellness. This is your space to speak calm into your day and anchor your mind in positive truth. Through simple affirmations and moments of still reflection, we practice reshaping our inner dialogue, one gentle statement at a time.
Learning to regulate emotions, especially at work, by finding strength in restraint and clarity in calm.
Reflective Note
This story speaks to the quiet discipline of emotional control, the kind that doesn’t silence you, but steadies you.
If you’ve ever felt misunderstood, provoked, or tested at work, you’re not alone. Many of us carry old wounds into new spaces, unaware that our reactions are often echoes of earlier pain.
As you read, take a slow breath. Let this story remind you that calm isn’t weakness, it’s clarity. It’s the moment you decide that your peace is more important than anyone’s chaos.
When I look back at my professional life, I realize how long it took me to learn the true meaning of calm.
I started working young, really young. My first job was as an instructional aide with the Los Angeles Urban League, Head Start Program. I wanted to work with children to protect them. After one year, my supervisor promoted me to a supervisor/teacher.
I still remember that moment so clearly. Instead of feeling proud, I cried. I told her, “I don’t want the job.”
She was strict, severe, and easily angered when someone made a mistake. Her energy reminded me so much of my aunt, the woman who raised me. That same tone. That same coldness, and because of that, I was afraid. I didn’t want to be disciplined. I didn’t want to be made to feel small again.
But she pulled me aside and said, “You can do this. I see something in you.”
That was the start of my leadership journey. I was twenty-three years old, young, driven, and still carrying a lot of unhealed pain.
Because of my past, I came into leadership with a defensive mindset. My attitude was simple: no one is going to talk to me like I'm crazy.
I wasn’t just protective of myself; I was protective of everyone I worked with. If I thought someone was being mistreated, I’d jump right in. I had what I call a freedom fighter spirit. I wanted fairness and justice for everyone.
The problem was, I didn’t understand the difference between passion and reaction.
I didn’t realize that as a leader, you can’t always bring your personal emotions into professional spaces. You have to be the example, and I didn’t learn that lesson until much later, fifty-two years old to be exact.
For years, if something triggered me at work or if something reminded me of a past hurt, I would lose composure. I’d shut down, stop talking, pull back, or get an attitude. I thought I was protecting myself, but I was really reacting to old pain.
The truth is, you can’t lead effectively when your triggers lead you, and I learned that the hard way.
People often say, “Don’t be emotional at work,” but I’ve come to understand that what they really mean is to manage your emotions. Because once people see emotion, they stop hearing your message. You could be right, your point could be valid, but if your tone or reaction is off, that’s all they’ll remember.
It took years of mistakes, misunderstandings, and reflection for me to recognize that pattern. A significant situation at work forced me to slow down and look at myself. Then, I had surgery on my foot and had to take three months off. That time away changed everything.
I had space to think, pray, and reflect. And what I realized was this: my job is not my identity. It’s something I do, not who I am.
When I returned, I had a different mindset. I started to see how much of the workplace is political, the personalities, the games, the hidden rules, and for years, I fought against that. I told myself, I don’t play games, but the truth is, corporate environments have their own culture, and sometimes you have to navigate it strategically, not emotionally.
I also learned something small but mighty: don’t make your workspace your home. We decorate our offices with personal touches like plants, family pictures, and knick-knacks, and before we know it, we start treating work like it’s part of our personal world. That makes it harder to separate who you are from what you do.
Now, I keep my space simple. It reminds me that work is just a place where I come to provide a service. When I leave, I leave it there. It took me fifty years to learn that lesson, but I finally got it. Healing played a big part in that. You can’t be a grounded leader if you haven’t dealt with your past. If you don’t know what triggers you, your reactions will keep writing your story for you.
Today, I lead with calm. I pause before I respond. I try to listen more than I speak, and I’ve learned that real strength isn’t in defending yourself all the time, it’s in knowing when you don’t have to.
“When I learned to stop reacting, I discovered how powerful silence can be.”
Leadership isn’t about being fearless; it’s about being self-aware. When we take the time to understand our triggers and separate who we are from what we do, we lead from peace instead of pain.
Calm doesn’t mean weak. It means steady. It means you trust yourself enough to respond instead of react, and that’s where composure becomes your strength.
Where story meets science, strength grows through understanding.
Emotional Intelligence, Leadership, and Work Teams: Linking Emotional Intelligence and Performance at Work
National Library of Medicine (Open Access)
This full-text article explores how emotional intelligence connects to leadership success, teamwork, and workplace balance. It’s a helpful read for understanding why managing emotions is key to leading effectively and maintaining harmony in professional environments.
How to Prevent Stress in the Workplace by Emotional Regulation? The Relationship Between Emotional Intelligence and Stress Management
SAGE Open Journal, 2022 (Open Access)
This research piece dives into real strategies for emotional regulation and stress prevention at work. It offers evidence-based insights on how awareness and restraint can reduce burnout and improve relationships in professional spaces.
Speaking Peace into My Life
For years, I looked calm on the outside while battling storms within. It wasn’t until stillness found me that I began to hear God and my own truth. Through SILWELL-C, I learned that peace isn’t something you chase, it’s something you speak into being. When your words align with gratitude and purpose, calm stops being what you seek and becomes who you are.
Words shape wellness. This is your space to speak calm into your day and anchor your mind in positive truth. Through simple affirmations and moments of still reflection, we practice reshaping our inner dialogue, one gentle statement at a time.
Finding purpose, clarity, and my calm through stillness and self-belief.
Personal note: This is the story of how I began speaking peace into my life, one calm word, one quiet breath at a time.
Peace didn’t arrive all at once. It came in a whisper, in moments when life forced me to sit still long enough to listen. For years, I appeared to have it all together: strong, organized, the one people turned to for balance. But behind that calm exterior was a woman fighting storms no one could see. I was exhausted, searching for peace while still living in a state of chaos. It wasn’t until life pressed pause that I finally found what I’d been chasing all along, myself.
After my divorce, I thought I had found peace, but really, I had only found space. I was still a work in progress, sometimes angry, and lost the next. I threw myself into work, showing up for others while quietly breaking down inside. I felt invisible, misplaced, like I didn’t belong anywhere. Even though people around me admired my calm, I didn’t feel it. Inside, I was a freedom fighter, always defending, always bracing for the next emotional hit.
Then came the shift I didn’t expect: surgery. Three months of being home, unable to rush, unable to fix or save anyone. At first, I hated it, the silence, the stillness. But somewhere in that stillness, I began to hear God.
I spent the first few weeks reflecting on my life, my purpose, and what truly brings me fulfillment. And then something unfolded: clarity. I realized that what I had created for my staff through a wellness program, helping others breathe, rest, and feel seen, was also what had healed me.
When I began creating SILWELL-C, it wasn’t a business; it was a form of therapy. Writing the framework, designing the toolkit, and developing the visuals all brought a sense of calm to my spirit. I was no longer fighting to prove my worth; I was living it. Each task became a declaration:
I am capable. I am calm. I am guided.
The more I poured into this new purpose, the less room there was for negativity. My words softened. My mornings became sacred. Gratitude replaced comparison. I found joy in simple things, such as breathing, creating, and resting.
And when I looked back at everything I had accomplished, I realized I had built a brand, written a children’s book, created an entire website, and filed my own trademark and copyright. I realized something divine:
God had given me peace in the form of purpose.
“When you begin speaking calm into your life, the noise around you starts to lose its power.”
Peace doesn’t always come wrapped in comfort; sometimes it’s hidden inside the pause we didn’t plan for. My calm began when I stopped trying to fix what was broken and started nurturing what was growing. I’ve learned that speaking peace isn’t just about words, it’s about alignment. When your heart, your habits, and your purpose speak the same language, calm becomes who you are.
Where story meets science, peace deepens through awareness.
Self-affirmations and gratitude practices can buffer stress and boost problem-solving and mood.
Good sources: Creswell et al. (2013) on self-affirmation under stress; Emmons & McCullough (2003) on gratitude benefits. PMC+1